But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this
all-surpassing power is from God and
not from us. (2 Corinthians 4:7)

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Uphold me to the End

Was just recollecting my thoughts awhile ago. This week had been busy, and the coming week is gonna be the same too. After soccer will be Touch Rugby. One more week, then i can take a long break from sports. My eyes were a little troubled after the many trainings and the matches. Blurring of visions now and then. And suddenly i was being reminded of the health status of my eyes. Have you ever felt proud of your eyes before? I do. Not because my eyes are beautiful, but it's because these eyes always convey my emotions and thoughts very well. These eyes gave me signals every now and then, telling me lots and lots of stuff. And these eyes have shed a lot of tears too..

You know, sometimes, our tears often blur our sight and prevent us from seeing clearly. Today, as i was putting the warm towel on my eyes and put them to rest for an hour, then i began thinking.. all this while, when my visions were blurred and i couldn't see things clearly, who is the one who cares enough to love me in my pain and walk with me in my struggles. It's You. When i was being scolded for being weak, You told me that I'm strong in Your eyes, and my greatest strength is often shown in my ability to stand still and trust You. One day, if these eyes are no longer functional, i know that I'll still be okay, because You will give me sufficient grace to guide me through.

It's all about You.
And all this is for You.
It's not about me.
As if You should do things my way.
You alone are God
And i surrender to Your ways.
A lot of things happened today!

Had soccer matches in the morning till 5pm. Played vs 5 other halls. Although we didn’t get into the top 3, we were still overwhelmed with joy. This year KE7 hall had 2 goals. If you’re not a hall person, you will never understand why it is so significant for KE7 to score at least one goal. First, we’re a cultural hall and we're bad at sports. And we’re always the last in the past interhall games IHG. Second, KE gals soccer did not score any goal for 4 years already, and today, we’ve created a history!!! 3 cheers to KE gals soccer. :D And ryan came to watch the matches too :)

Our first match was vs Sheares. Haha, it was a draw. We scored one, they also scored one. Too bad for them :P Temasek and Eusoff: 1-nil. Yeap we didn’t score any goal, but I felt quite proud of the team for putting up a good defense. We only allowed them to score one goal :P And I was kinda proud when this KR soccer captain said that we’re quite good, and we’re better than previous years. :D

And we beat Raffles! Hee :D





Me and Denyse acting professional hee :)


My foot was injured during the match cos a KR gal stepped on me. Well, everyone’s wearing soccer boots and she was attacking and I was defending, so yeah in the end I was the casualty. Had a big depression on my boot and of course, swelling soon ensued after that. haha! I really hope that it’ll heal before my rugby this coming Sunday.

Went to jk’s house for COT gathering. Had a big feast there – KFC, Pizza, bacon wraps, brownie, beer, liquor etc… drank quite a bit there, and many were drunk in the end. Poor sp he vomited quite badly after that. hm… next time must know your limit k! J hope you’re alright now yea!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Random Post

Wonder what's wrong with the blogspot time. It is 12am wednesday now, but the time registered at the end of the post will always be different. And it's very different. :(

Just finished soccer and touch rugby trainings. It felt very nice to train in the field, and today was very windy. Tired. Very tired. I can't figure out what kind of exhaustion is this. Is it physical? Emotional? Mental? Whatever it is, i'm glad i am able to release the suppression inside me through the trainings. The back ache still lingers around, giving me a sharp pain every now and then. In a way, i hope this pain persists for as long as it can. Is it the theory of distraction of pain? I learnt in psychology that when u want to distract urself from feeling the pain in a particular place, you can always make the other site more painful, then you will not focus on the sensational pain at the former region. But, this theory doesn't work for me.

God, i'm very sad. God, when will this end?And i wonder why i'm such a moron. God, can you make a way for me? If You are not going to take away this persistent pain, then can You at least provide me with a way out?

Dear girl, i'm so sorry. You must have felt quite sad when you saw me not talking anymore. And i know i can't keep saying sorry too. How girl... i feel so tired.

Monday, January 21, 2008

眼光


不管天有多黑,星星还在夜里闪亮。

不管夜有多长,黎明早已在那头盼望。

不管山有多高,信心的歌把它踏在脚下。

不管路有多远,心中有爱仍然可以走到云端。

谁能跨过艰难,谁能飞跃沮丧,

谁能看见前面有梦可想,

上帝的心看见希望,你的心里要有眼光。

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Youth Expedition Project 2007

Here are some photos taken during my India expedition:



I miss Bukkapatna village
I miss the teaching sessions
I miss my rider :)

First week of Semester 2

First week of school has been quite relaxing. No test, no labs, no academic stuff to settle. Went down for soccer training this monday. It was my first time training for soccer. Soccer is tough ah! I kept stepping on the ball cos i couldnt stop it, and the flying ball hit all over my body. Haha, but it was quite fun and i enjoyed it loads. Next saturday is the soccer match already! I think i gonna have a hard time chasing after the ball on that day. Hee :D

Had touch rugby training yesterday. TR is my favorite :) I think pik wei is a good captain, better than me i feel :) Did a bit of running, passings, switches etc... Actually i think TR trainings are the most fun, cos you run a lot, you sweat a lot, and the ball is not round --> which makes it even more fun! Mindy sprained her ankle during training -_- she has inherited my accident-prone gene :( You know, while i was in india, my leg was bitten by some unknown insects and the swelling was really big, like a super humongous char saw pau! And i ended up in the hospital cos it was quite painful when i walked. The doctor wanted to give me injection but i refused hee :) But in the end oral medication solved the problem :) No need to sleep in hospital hee :D



Super big char sau pau



The -_- face -- taken outside the hospital that mindy and jk brought me to.

Anyway, my room is super neat and clean now. DAN, isn't it so much neater and nicer ? :D



Sunday, January 13, 2008

2008

School is starting tomorrow. Guess what? I love my COT bunch, they are really fun-lovers :)

It's 2008 already, I am turning 22 this year. Today, i had a good chat with my pastor. He told me I have grown so much this year, more mature, more compassionate, more spiritual. And i felt quite peaceful after listening to what he said. The thorn God gave me in 2007 was indeed coupled with blessings and love. Because of the thorn that He allowed to come into my life, i was made humbled and more spiritual. I know things will not turn good in near future, but God, i just pray that i will not be led by my emotions, i want to be led my the truth.

It's 2008, and i hope i can achieve all of these:

1. Continue to grow in church and root myself in God's words
2. Be the same
3. Increase my vessel's size - I guess "this" is causing such an intense pain within me because my life is such a small vessel. Because i am a small vessel, a drop of acid will affect me a great deal. I hope to be a larger vessel, because if it is so, the drop of acid will be drowned by many other stuff which the vessel is containing. I won't feel the acid's reaction that seriously.
4. Closer family ties
5. Stronger friendship

The God who has been to my tomorrow, is here to guide me today.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

The Flavour of Life



The Flavour of Life

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn't
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness.
The flavor of life

Stuck midpoint between friends and lovers,
like an unripe fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
being unable to just move one more step forward
is what's causing this frustration baby

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn't
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
it sparks no interest in me
even when things do not go the way you want
it doesnt mean you've thrown your life away

When asked 'whats wrong?'
I answer 'its nothing'
The smile that disappears after goodbye
It's unlike me

The more i wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more
'i like you a lot' instead of 'i love you' sounds more like you
the flavor of life

the period when you suddenly remember the scent of someone you had almost forgotten
I want to be able to openly and honestly cherish the white purity of the falling snow more

A future tender and warmer than a diamond
i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, i want to spend it with you

when you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesnt
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness
The flavor of life


- Utada Hikaru. The Flavour of Life.