But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this
all-surpassing power is from God and
not from us. (2 Corinthians 4:7)

Monday, December 9, 2013

Never Be Apart - John 15:5





我要像一棵樹按時結果 
栽在溪水旁 
喜愛袮的話語 晝夜思想 
這是有福的

袮就像葡萄樹 我是枝子 
常在祢裡面 
愛我疼我的天父 
我是袮孩子

永遠不分離 哦 永遠不分離 
世上沒有任何事能使袮愛隔絕

永遠不分離 哦 永遠不分離 
留心聽祢 側耳聽祢 
我是有福的

像一棵樹永不枯乾 
常在祢裡面






Monday, December 2, 2013

Is It not enough to have God, alone?


Today, I felt a little frightened. Haven't felt like this for a long while. 

Yet it has been 2 years. 

Every time, when the rotation comes, I find myself feeling fearful again when I have to face certain people at work. Some people who give me a sense of "I am small". 

And this feeling comes to me periodically, perhaps once every month for 3 months, then half a year later. 

To add on, something also happened at work which makes me feel inadequate, also not knowing how to respond to certain people.

Do you also have similar experience?

I brought this to prayer after lunch and ask God - Lord, why am I so fearful? Have I lost my identity as child of God?

But this is what God convicted me 
- My child, yes my child, I am here
  But whenever you're fearful, it is because what you want is not ME.

  If I am ALL you have ever wanted and desired, you will not be in fear nor lost.

  Having Me as your all - isn't it enough?

My heart aches as I realize this. Why do I seek after the acknowledgement of men and worry about not getting into good books and doing "wrong" things at work when God is already my Jehovah Jireh, my faithful lover, supporter and companion? He who guides me in all things will also be with me to the end come what may. 

What good do I have if I get into men's good books but having my relationship with God estranged?

What joy do I have when I can only rejoice when things favor me and trembles when things seem to against me, when the Lord my God is sovereign and He is purposeful in all things of my life?

What so awesome about being complimented by someone and knowing it is transient and subjected to conditions, when God has already chosen to love me unconditionally before the creation of the world?

I really deeply realized that the root of sorrow of man is not having Jesus ONLY in heart, it is Jesus+many many other things

Men's unpeacefulness has something to do with what he holds on to. 

If a person focuses on His own blessedness, he will be able see the guidance of the HS 

Yes Lord, having You is enough. 
Nothing is more important than you in me and I am in you. I know I'm the most blissful girl in this world knowing and living in this truth.



Jn 4
15 “If you love me, keep my commands. 16 And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be[c] in you. 18 I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 19 Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 20 On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. 21 Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”




Monday, October 28, 2013

Psalm 51:10,17

Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me. 
My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart you, God,
will not not despise.


Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Oceans will Part



If my heart has grown cold, there Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
When I'm blind to my way, there Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Oceans will part, nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise, glory shown
In my life Your will be done

Present suffering may pass, Lord, Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise, I'll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Oceans will part, nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise, glory shown
In my life Your will be done

Oceans will part, nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise, glory shown
In my life Your will be done

As You open my eyes
To the work of Your hand
Jesus open my eyes
To the work of Your hand

Oceans will part, nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise, glory shown
In my life Your will be done

Oceans will part, nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise, glory shown
In my life Your will be done
In my life Your will be done
In my life Your will be done
I really like this song because many times it is my prayer too. We often find ourselves powerless to even come before God, just like our hearts have lost the wanting to come to God and seek His face and His love. 
Yet amazingly, even when we have lost all these wanting, all these strength, God is still there, unchanging. His love still flows from His throne above, moving Holy Spirit to great work within us, according to His promises.  
And thus I often find myself, somehow, still sitting among the congregation listening to the pulpit message, to come to His church, to come to seek Him. So here I am today, somehow. Then I realize this 'somehow' is the intercession of the Holy Spirit, just as when we are blind, His spirit will pray, so that our eyes can be opened to His works, again, and again. 
So if you wonder why you are still able to listen to traces of the Word of truth today, it is not because of anything you have but His love. His love set the Red Sea apart before Moses and the Israelites, and the God who was with His people is also with you today, not giving up on us. 
Have your heart grown cold toward God's words? 
If yes, may this song be your prayer. 
Man cannot come before God when he is strong, it is only after he returns to the Lord can he regain strength, and be strong. 

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Freely Given Privilege


It is always easy to give thanks when we have good things coming to us - good friendship, well loved by people, good results, good career progression and smooth-sailing lives. On the other hand, it is also often difficult to give thanks when we are disliked by friends and people we like, less ideal results, lack of career progression, and hardship infiltrating into every aspect of our lives. Moments like these make us feel that God is very far away from us, and we need these problems to be solved before we can see that God is real in our lives.

If what bothered you is still bothering you now, give thanks! For God knows that you cannot taste the sweetness of His sovereign grace when you are not bothered. Instead of remaining disturbed by your circumstances (family resistances towards gospel, examinations, unpleasant treatment from others…) because you cannot change them by your own will and wisdom, choose to quiet down and know what you have first, before fighting the battle!

You are the child of God, and you have a Father who knows every of your need even before you asked or present them into prayers. Your Father knows when you are in pain, and wants to comfort you when you are in sadness. Most importantly, our Father will never forsake His own children. There is nothing in this world too big for Him to conquer, but if you do not know you have such an almighty Father, there is nothing you can conquer.


God allows problems in your life to destroy the typicality in you (such as your world views, your pursuit, your purpose in life) so as to restore Christ fully in your life. Each problem is an opportunity to be Holy Spirit filled to drive out the forces of darkness in that area of your life, because the typicality in you is due to the deceptive work from Satan. Each problem is a closer step to crushing the grasps of Satan in your life when you know how to draw strength from the Holy Spirit that works in accordance to what God says.

If you keep holding onto your true identity as child of God and use God's unfailing love to see all things happening in your life, without you knowing, one day you realize that despite problems/challenges remain, you are no longer bothered by them emotionally and physically. Instead, you are full of hope and anticipation because you know that God will preserve you till the end, so that people can see the work of Christ in your life through your total submission to Christ. And you will have the courage to proclaim to Satan that you're not afraid of his attacks because you know that each attack is propelling you towards receiving greater grace from God, knowing that you are living in the truth and God is with you even in these struggles.

Therefore, receive great assurance not only in current problem you are facing, but from every problem that comes in future. God's covenant is absolute and will never change,  His words will never be chained by your weakness. Indeed, to be called to be His Child - is a freely given privilege :) Don't feel weak and lousy, look at the finished work on the cross and do the right thing, the truth will prove that it is true :)


Sunday, April 28, 2013

The Lord is always with Me

This is one of the songs that will be sung during shiya's wedding and the more i listen to it, the more I like it. Sometimes it is so easy to forget the ever-present Lord in life especially when things in life just unfold, taking away my attention.

Lord has been faithful. Just when I am a little bit distracted, He is quick in holding me back to His arms. His love never fails.

God is serious in you, do you know that?

Hope you enjoy this song :)




Thursday, February 28, 2013

Look

If we always look at man - their actions, words, affections, response, validations etc, we're bound to fall.

 But when we look at God and be reminded of His love and grace to us, we will find strength in all situations, including the strength to stand up after each fall, and the strength to even strengthen the people beside us. 


A reflection after a conversation with my old friend who just started his surgical training in my hospital. 

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

It's the matter of the Heart

In a glimpse of an eye, 2012 had passed. I have this immense feeling that time really passes way too quickly, beyond one can imagine. Do you also feel the same way?

It is Wednesday today, and I am really glad to be able to knock off and come home to rest. February felt like a breeze. Was down with a bad cold during the first 2 weeks of the month, and got well just in time for Chinese New Year. And without me knowing, the CNY had now passed and I was down with a bad episode of diarrhea soon after I came back to work, leaving me really physically drained.

Not sure about you, whenever I am sick, I will always lock myself in the room. I needed some time alone. Needed some time to think. A quiet moment to really focus in my prayer. Don't know why, after that I will end up sleeping for a really really long time. You know, it is also when you're "bedridden" that you start counting how many things you have done, and how many things you have not done - but you should have.

And I realized that the things which I've yet to do are indeed many. And I seem to be devoting more time on things that is less important, forsaking what is more important.

What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?

So God gave me a prayer topic this February, and that is to realign my life priorities.

I know that i will still be weak at times, I pray that God will help me to guard my heart, enable me to follow His will. God brought me into re-reading this post and I would like to share it with you here. Indeed, what i need to press on forward is to find the Right Words, and pray with the Right Heart. [Adapted from Reverend Vincent Choo http://zhishan.wordpress.com/2012/10/15/right-words-right-heart/ ]

Brethren, there are always hurdles that are difficult to cross in our lives. And many a times, it’s neither by our positive mindset nor the exercising of our self-will that could bring things to pass. Yet, God has given us the Holy Spirit (the Person of Jesus) who transcends all our inability

So Be Still, find the Right Words, pray with the Right Heart!

1) When losing something/someone becomes a reality, pray to Jesus: Lord, I felt the loss, but I felt your love.  
2) When submission is juz so difficult, pray to Jesus: Lord, I know it’s impossible with me, but let it be possible in you.  
3) When the condemnation of sin is so great, pray to Jesus: Lord, I am born a sinner and I’m still one, yet thank you that I begin to comprehend your grace.    
4) When temptation is so real, pray to Jesus: Lord, it’s beyond me, yet protect me for your name’s sake.  
5) When loving someone is juz too difficult, pray to Jesus: Lord, my flesh doesn’t allow me to, but I know when I truly love you, it will be the only thing I wanna be.  
6) When bracing up again is so difficult, pray to Jesus: Lord, if I’m gonna fail again, let me fail in you.  
7) When the damage is done and consequences are inevitable, pray to Jesus: Lord, let me fall into your merciful hands, and be disciplined by you.  
8) When little problems and worries of life juz get so frustrating, pray to Jesus: Lord, mould me to be someone with vision, coupled with a big heart.   
9) When life seems so cruel, pray to Jesus: Lord, thank you for letting me realize the pain of the cross. 
10) When success is over your head, pray to Jesus: Lord, I have no success other than you. Let me rejoice in you alone.  

May we restore the Right Heart, today :)