Five loaves and two fishes

"Take my five loaves and two fishes

Do with it as You will

I surrender

Take my fears and my inhibitions

All my burdens, my ambitions

You can use it all to feed them all"

A song that convicts me abundantly. We often look down on ourselves when it is actually our disbelief that hinders us from resting on the sovereign and perfect leading of God. Contrary to what we've been so habitual in thinking and believing, God has never left us - He's there when we're in our ups, and He's there when we're in our downs. But often, we have become so absorbed into the information of the world, the voices and remarks of Satan that we forget that Our Father God is above all these. Therefore, it's indeed the grace of God that never stops lavishing on us that in our ignorance,  God chooses to awaken us from our spiritual stupor with His truth. Even when we're in doubts, just as the disciples, Jesus performed the miracle of five loaves and two fishes to feed the five thousands, showing us it is not how great our faith is but His grace that gives us the faith, including the faith to follow Him.

God has never intended us to be children with great faith and great abilities, no matter how small our faith is, even as small as a mustard seed, God wants us to use this faith to follow Him, again and again. God does not heal the sicks through great preachers and pastors, nor great doctors, but God heals the sicks holistically starting from their souls, through the prayers of convicted believers.

If our struggle is on the five loaves and two fishes (physical needs), we will only be satisfied by the five loaves and two fishes (visible and tangible things). If our struggle is on fighting with our disbelief and still desiring to follow God in our weakness and powerlessness, God will satisfy us.

Our day-in day-out miracles begin from our spirits -> when we see the truth of God and live in the convictions of these truth, we will rely on the Holy Spirit in all times. The miracles God wants to give us is more than the mere five loaves and two fishes, He wants us to live in the ever-present and ever-active love and power of God, putting our contentment not on the tangible things the world tempts us but the infinite love and grace that our souls need, yet only Christ can satisfy.

Five loaves and two fishes by Corinne May

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
He said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all"

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small