But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this
all-surpassing power is from God and
not from us. (2 Corinthians 4:7)
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Reconciliation with God
I have had a tough week. And I learnt something new from huilin... TGIF. It means thank God it's friday! hm... i was being laughed at for not knowing this famous term. CM further reinforced that this term existed even in malaysia. Alright, I am just too ignorant I guess! haha.
I started developing fever on saturday. Cough ensued quickly. Over just one night, my fever had spiked a high note. Never had over 38.4 C for fever before. So this episode was pretty uncomfy to me. I usually tolerated fever quite well, it didn't even affect me in the past. So yea, this time I was given a 2 days MC. Some medicines, antibiotics inclusive. H1N1? haha, perhaps H2N2. I don't know. My opinion is that it's just hospital acquired infection due to nature of my job and my immunity hasn't always been too good to start with.
I took Monday off, just to have a good rest at home. I need to recuperate before it turns worse. No 2 days MC because there's a project which a NUS student is also handling as part of her project during preceptorship, so I have to be there for the discussion before the execution. I was also reluctant to take another day of MC, for I may miss some invaluable insights that I always gain while on the job.
But God sort of gave me a signal few days back. He sent 3 angels telling me to pace myself, for I have been pushing myself too hard they said. Spiritually, I know the spirit within me has been reminding me that the weariness from working always overwhelm me every single day that I have been cutting down on my time alone with God. The 'me' also warns me that it is the constant communication and fellowship with God and church which sustain me to this very day, and I actually get a bit lost and uneasy when I am unable to spend more time on prayers and attending church meetings.
So God gave me a timely break. To pause, and reflect. And to realign my priorities, before I get lost in a sea of learnings and homeworks or works. Honestly, I appreciate that calling very much. I am also very thankful that God didn't let me continue doing what the world seems to always has been doing (and it's called norm) and He gave me a wake-up call before things become messier.
One day of rest. One day of thoughts and prayers.
Although the cough still lingers till today, I am happy that fever is gone. Starting from wednesday, I also developed very serious diarrhea. Huilin said I lost weight tremendously. Haha! I don't know if I should be happy or sad. Went A&E and get my meds. Hopefully the health can only get better from now on.
This week is also my 5th week in OP. I am starting to feel a little sad, for I have grown to love OP, and reluctant to leave. Nonetheless, I know I have to move on to another station, for I might love the next station too!
Started dispensing this week too. Finally I grew to know the drugs and therapy better. As I counsel, I learn; as I observe other pharmacists dispensing, I learn too. I feel that everyday of working is rewarding, cos I learn many little small things bit by bit everyday. Now I truly know what it means by Learning is a Journey. It doesn't stop after school, but it keeps on going even when you are working. And I know even the most senior pharmacist is learning everyday too!
So yea, you can see me dispensing at outpatient pharmacy already! Starting from the short scripts, slowly going to the longer ones. The only hope within me is to be able to provide answers to patients and hopefully I can be the last stop of all their queries regarding their health/ medications. I know it's not easy, but I know God honors this little wish of mine, and I know He puts me in a place for reason.
I don't know why, whenever I can associate what ever things that I am doing has a reason, and has been carefully planned by God, I feel hopeful. And the good thing is, dispensing has been good so far. :)
Another piece of good news. Every pre-reg has to do oncology traning too. My hospital doesn't have an oncology unit, so normally they send pre-reggers to NCC for training. I have been wishing and praying that there is a change of plan this year so that I can don't go NCC for training (reasons... hm... I will tell you next time, if you ask!). It doesn't seem possible in fact, because NCC is the only place in SG providing extensive cancer services and treatment.
BUT.
As I received the latest schedule, I am utterly impressed and happy.
I am going to John Hopkins for my oncology attachment!!! WHEE!
It happens that NCC has restrictions on the number of intake and only 3 out of 5 of us are going NCC and ..... I am going JH!
There's always hope in God :)
I started developing fever on saturday. Cough ensued quickly. Over just one night, my fever had spiked a high note. Never had over 38.4 C for fever before. So this episode was pretty uncomfy to me. I usually tolerated fever quite well, it didn't even affect me in the past. So yea, this time I was given a 2 days MC. Some medicines, antibiotics inclusive. H1N1? haha, perhaps H2N2. I don't know. My opinion is that it's just hospital acquired infection due to nature of my job and my immunity hasn't always been too good to start with.
I took Monday off, just to have a good rest at home. I need to recuperate before it turns worse. No 2 days MC because there's a project which a NUS student is also handling as part of her project during preceptorship, so I have to be there for the discussion before the execution. I was also reluctant to take another day of MC, for I may miss some invaluable insights that I always gain while on the job.
But God sort of gave me a signal few days back. He sent 3 angels telling me to pace myself, for I have been pushing myself too hard they said. Spiritually, I know the spirit within me has been reminding me that the weariness from working always overwhelm me every single day that I have been cutting down on my time alone with God. The 'me' also warns me that it is the constant communication and fellowship with God and church which sustain me to this very day, and I actually get a bit lost and uneasy when I am unable to spend more time on prayers and attending church meetings.
So God gave me a timely break. To pause, and reflect. And to realign my priorities, before I get lost in a sea of learnings and homeworks or works. Honestly, I appreciate that calling very much. I am also very thankful that God didn't let me continue doing what the world seems to always has been doing (and it's called norm) and He gave me a wake-up call before things become messier.
One day of rest. One day of thoughts and prayers.
Although the cough still lingers till today, I am happy that fever is gone. Starting from wednesday, I also developed very serious diarrhea. Huilin said I lost weight tremendously. Haha! I don't know if I should be happy or sad. Went A&E and get my meds. Hopefully the health can only get better from now on.
This week is also my 5th week in OP. I am starting to feel a little sad, for I have grown to love OP, and reluctant to leave. Nonetheless, I know I have to move on to another station, for I might love the next station too!
Started dispensing this week too. Finally I grew to know the drugs and therapy better. As I counsel, I learn; as I observe other pharmacists dispensing, I learn too. I feel that everyday of working is rewarding, cos I learn many little small things bit by bit everyday. Now I truly know what it means by Learning is a Journey. It doesn't stop after school, but it keeps on going even when you are working. And I know even the most senior pharmacist is learning everyday too!
So yea, you can see me dispensing at outpatient pharmacy already! Starting from the short scripts, slowly going to the longer ones. The only hope within me is to be able to provide answers to patients and hopefully I can be the last stop of all their queries regarding their health/ medications. I know it's not easy, but I know God honors this little wish of mine, and I know He puts me in a place for reason.
I don't know why, whenever I can associate what ever things that I am doing has a reason, and has been carefully planned by God, I feel hopeful. And the good thing is, dispensing has been good so far. :)
Another piece of good news. Every pre-reg has to do oncology traning too. My hospital doesn't have an oncology unit, so normally they send pre-reggers to NCC for training. I have been wishing and praying that there is a change of plan this year so that I can don't go NCC for training (reasons... hm... I will tell you next time, if you ask!). It doesn't seem possible in fact, because NCC is the only place in SG providing extensive cancer services and treatment.
BUT.
As I received the latest schedule, I am utterly impressed and happy.
I am going to John Hopkins for my oncology attachment!!! WHEE!
It happens that NCC has restrictions on the number of intake and only 3 out of 5 of us are going NCC and ..... I am going JH!
There's always hope in God :)
Monday, July 13, 2009
Commencement 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Life is a journey
Last Saturday was our graduation dinner. Despite the hectic schedule and endless homeworks, we managed to have a fun time together at Hilton hotel. :)
Time flies.
4 years of university life had just ended and now we are all working already!
Again, I must say, learning is a journey, AND happiness is not a station we arrive at, but the manner of our traveling.
To my fellow classmates, congratulations and may we excel in the paths we are undertaking :)
I am really glad that our commencement run has left a legacy to our juniors!
Time flies.
4 years of university life had just ended and now we are all working already!
Again, I must say, learning is a journey, AND happiness is not a station we arrive at, but the manner of our traveling.
To my fellow classmates, congratulations and may we excel in the paths we are undertaking :)
I am really glad that our commencement run has left a legacy to our juniors!
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Thursday, July 2, 2009
3 weeks into pre-reg...
COming to the end of my 3rd week in outpatient pharmacy.
I like outpatient pharmacy, not sure if OP likes me too. Time passes very quickly when you're in OP, esp unknowingly, you have seen 500+ prescriptions pushing out to the counter to be dispensed. I remembered first week at OP, my legs were like detached from my body at the end of the day, I practically can no longer FEEL the presence of my legs.
Try standing from 8+ am to 6pm with only ard 45 mins of sitting time in between.
Perhaps you'll like the utter numbness.
Plus the shoes - they're killing me.
Second week in OP - I think the legs weariness was no longer that severe.
Now that I'm in OP for 3 weeks already, I can proudly say that I've developed tolerance to long hours of standing. Sometimes you won't even realize that you've been standing for so long. And thank God, I am adapting already.
I like doing counter 1. You get to see all patients coming to the pharmacy, cos you're to issue them a Q no, and answer their queries. And I always see the carebear at the end of the shelves. Come to my pharmacy and you'll see a whole shelf of Carebear! So cute - and I bought 2 in just 1 week - one cos is yt's bdae, one is cos HL's getting for her bf - aww so sweet :D
Nonetheless, the longer I spent in OP - the more i realize how stupid and useless I am.
Some days, I felt really sad because of my slowness in learning certain kills, I actually clogged up the workflow in the pharmacy. I feel so stupid and useless :( Worse still, I have my comfort food at the end of the day - Mc Donalds, to relieve my sense of incompetency.
Today, I actually am very happy cos I typed more than yesterday - and slightly faster than yesterday. Maybe I should stay back after working hours to familiarize with the shortcuts etc then I won't be so slow anymore!
Give me time.
And God, I'm so thankful that the people in OP are very considerate and tolerant to me. I can't ask for more!
I stayed back on Tuesday just to learn about the creams and ointment.
Finally I decided that I must put a stop to this many feeling of stupidity and start doing something. Anything. But I also realize that I'm a slow learner - 2 hours and I only managed to know the availability and the potencies of the creams - and their roles in treatment. But nvm, I'll try harder next time!
Ask me about creams/ ointments. Anything! I will answer to the best I can, and if I cannot, I will find the answer out, I promise.
I need to stop thinking and start doing SOMETHING!
I like outpatient pharmacy, not sure if OP likes me too. Time passes very quickly when you're in OP, esp unknowingly, you have seen 500+ prescriptions pushing out to the counter to be dispensed. I remembered first week at OP, my legs were like detached from my body at the end of the day, I practically can no longer FEEL the presence of my legs.
Try standing from 8+ am to 6pm with only ard 45 mins of sitting time in between.
Perhaps you'll like the utter numbness.
Plus the shoes - they're killing me.
Second week in OP - I think the legs weariness was no longer that severe.
Now that I'm in OP for 3 weeks already, I can proudly say that I've developed tolerance to long hours of standing. Sometimes you won't even realize that you've been standing for so long. And thank God, I am adapting already.
I like doing counter 1. You get to see all patients coming to the pharmacy, cos you're to issue them a Q no, and answer their queries. And I always see the carebear at the end of the shelves. Come to my pharmacy and you'll see a whole shelf of Carebear! So cute - and I bought 2 in just 1 week - one cos is yt's bdae, one is cos HL's getting for her bf - aww so sweet :D
Nonetheless, the longer I spent in OP - the more i realize how stupid and useless I am.
Some days, I felt really sad because of my slowness in learning certain kills, I actually clogged up the workflow in the pharmacy. I feel so stupid and useless :( Worse still, I have my comfort food at the end of the day - Mc Donalds, to relieve my sense of incompetency.
Today, I actually am very happy cos I typed more than yesterday - and slightly faster than yesterday. Maybe I should stay back after working hours to familiarize with the shortcuts etc then I won't be so slow anymore!
Give me time.
And God, I'm so thankful that the people in OP are very considerate and tolerant to me. I can't ask for more!
I stayed back on Tuesday just to learn about the creams and ointment.
Finally I decided that I must put a stop to this many feeling of stupidity and start doing something. Anything. But I also realize that I'm a slow learner - 2 hours and I only managed to know the availability and the potencies of the creams - and their roles in treatment. But nvm, I'll try harder next time!
Ask me about creams/ ointments. Anything! I will answer to the best I can, and if I cannot, I will find the answer out, I promise.
I need to stop thinking and start doing SOMETHING!
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