How We GROW

God wants us to grow up.

Imagine riding in a speedboat on a lake with an automatic pilot set to go east. If you decide to reverse and head west, you have 2 possible ways to change the boat's directions:
1. Grab the steering wheel and physically force it to head in the opp direction
from where the autopilot is programmed to go.
2. By sheer willpower you could overcome the autopilot, but you would feel constant
resistance. Your arms would eventually tire of the stress, you would let go of
the steering wheel, and the boat would instantly head back east, the way it was
internally programmed.

The 2nd is what happens when one tries to change her life with willpower. I often say " I will force myself to eat less... exercise more, eat my medicine, monitor the health of my heart..." Yes willpower can produce short-term change, but it creates internal stress because the root cause is not dealt with. The change doesn't come naturally, so i eventually give up, and revert to my old patterns, which only make the conditions worse.

I guess changing the autopilot -- the way you think, is a better and easier way. You know, the first step in spiritual growth is to start changing the way you think. Change always starts first in your spirit and mind. The way you think determines the way you feel, and the way you feel influences the way you think. The Bible says, "Let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think"

Your heavenly Father's goal is for you to mature and develop the characteristic of Jesus Christ. Sadly, millions of Christians grow older but never grow up. They are stuck in perpetual spiritual infancy, remaining in diapers and booties. The reason is that they never intended to grow.

Spiritual growth is not automatic. It takes an intentional commitment. You must want to grow, decide to grow, make an effort to grow, and persist in growing.

Nothing shapes your life more than the commitments you choose to make. Your commitments can develop you or they can destroy you, but either way, they will define you. It is at this point of commitment that most ppl miss God's purpose for their lives. Many are afraid to commit to anything. Some make half-hearted commitments to competing values. Others make full commitment to worldly goals such as becoming wealthy or successful. Every choice has eternal consequences, we become whatever we are committed to.

The Christian life is far more than creeds and convictions, it includes conduct and character. Our deeds must be consistent with our creeds, and our beliefs must be backed up with Christlike behavior.

We are commanded to "think the same way that Christ Jesus thought". In order to do this, we must stop thinking immature thoughts, which are self-centered and self-seeking. "Stop thinking like children" the bible says. Babies by nature are completely selfish. They think only of themselves and their own needs. They are incapable of giving, they can only receive. This is immature thinking, and many never grow beyond that kind of thinking. God reminds us every now and then that it is the source of sinful behavior.

It is never too late to start growing.

A NiCe PoEm

Here's a meaningful poem i would like to share with u, this is from Kelly, my bro's gf:

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone to have a deep soul relationship with another to be loved thoroughly and exculsively.

But to a Christian, God says.

"No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me alone-

with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me-

with having an intensely personal relationship with Me alone-

will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be united with another until you are united with Me-

exculsive of anyone or anything else, exculsive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing

and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing-

one that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best.

PLease allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things....

Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am.

Keep listening and learning those things that I tell you,

You just wait.

That's all.

Don't be anxious. Don't worry.

Don't look around at the things others have gotten or the things I have given them.

Don't look at the things you think you want.

You just keep looking to Me, or you'll miss what i want to show you.

And then, when you are ready,

I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you would dream of.

You see, until you are ready, and

until this one i have for you is ready

( I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time.....)

until you are both satisfied exculsively with Me, and the

life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience

that love that exemplifies your relationship with Me.

Which is the PERFECT ONE.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love.

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your

relationship with ME

and enjoy materially and concretely-

the everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love.

KNow that I love you utterly.

I AM GOD.

Believe it and be satisfied.



Amen!

The triangle

This is my retina. Nice or not? Hee.. you know what's retina? It contains millions of photoreceptors that capture light rays and convert them into electrical impulses. These impulses travel along the optic nerve to the brain where they are turned into images.

Yep so this is my retina. See the protruding vessels? This is an overstretched retina. You know, if your myopia increases, ur retina will stretch even more and it may break one day, if there's an impact right into your eyes, head, or if ur myopia just increases so rapidly.

If your short sightedness is above 600, you should take very good care of your eyes. The higher it is, the more likely you are prone to get eye-contracting blinding disease. And it is important to get a yearly eye-examination to check the condition of your retina. sometimes, the retina is a lil overstretched and it tears, or a hole appears, you must seek treatment immediately before your retina is completely torn apart. You could get a simple eye surgery and by using the laser to seal the hole, your retina will be safe, for awhile.

Oh ya, i happen to have floaters in my eyes at this very young age -_- but no worries, i will be fine. Oh ya, i really dislike this eye drop that they applied on my eyes. the stinging sensation and after that i just couldnt open my eyes, then your eyes will be enlarged for them to examine, and do everything. And it blurs the vision!

Anemia and Iron pills.

Hypotension.

Mindy, i asked abt jogging, but i was advised not to jog -_- we shall do brisk walking huh? hee. No rugby, better not to study.. hee, how am i supposed to fill these empty slots ne?

What have i been doing these days? I think these 3 things ba:

Physical healing

Psychological healing

Spiritual healing

I will be ok de. :)

Childhood

Do you know what i enjoyed most when i was a kindergarten teacher? I enjoyed reading story books with the kids. They enjoyed reading children stories and telling me the stories they have learned, while i enjoyed reading stories with them because i have never read those stories before.

I think i must have been a weird child. I don't know stories like Ali Baba and Aladdin.. I don't know the 40 thieves appeared in the Ali Baba story or in the Aladdin's. I don't know why Alice will appear in the wonderland and what she sees there too. But i know i keep reading some same old stories again and again when i was in primary school. I liked reading fairy tales like Cinderella, Snow white & the 7 dwarfs, stars rain down... you know, when i was in primary school, i would borrow the same old story book from the library every year, and i don't know why i just didnt feel bored reading them again and again.

Then you will start dreaming abt one day ur prince will come and u will live happily ever after. i always portrayed myself as a cinderella then cos in the story, she was always bullied by the step sisters. While i don't have any step sisters, i do have a brother that loves to bully me. How childish i was last time hee..

Do you know what was so silly abt me? gee... i've never told anyone though -_- after reading the story abt the sleeping beauty, my imagination became wilder. when nobody was ard, i would pretend as if i was really the sleeping beauty and lying on the bed dead asleep. then, dunno by what means, my hands would push the teddy bear beside me such that its little lips touched mine. oh ya, i imagined it as my prince charming :P after my prince kissed on my lips, i would wake up immediately and lived happily ever after. so lame -_-

i dunno why would i mention these suddenly. perhaps it's because of staying few hours in the kindergarten today. i saw those children story books on the shelf and became very engrossed in reading them today. then memories jus came back.

And i didnt know abt care bear too. but now that i know abt them, i've started to love them :) next time when my sister have babies, i will read them the stories of care bears. i think these stories are nicer than those Ali Baba and Aladdin ones. i have a wilder thought too. next time when mindy, pc, ger, jan, agnes, han wen, zhang chi have children, i will give each of them a care bear costume :P hee then i can make them wear the costumes and take photo! so cute :D

i really like care bear :)