Merry Christmas!!! =)
How's your christmas this year? Hope you had a good christmas with you loved ones.
Can't believe that it's end of year again. Really love christmas for too many reasons. To me, the air around christmas has always been the most wonderful. Not so much for the gift exchange, but more for the word 'Christmas' itself - it exudes an atmosphere of love, being together, and remembrance.
Went caroling with church again this year. Though this is something that we do every year, this time it gives me a different significance for I had the chance to help out with the planning with brother randy, although the contribution is little. Didn't sleep much the night before caroling for I was out with ssg peeps till near 4 am, and having to work the next day really makes things harder. But ONE thing is true that when the heart is truly joyful, adrenaline and endorphine will naturally be secreted in extra-ordinary amount and make you pull through the day with sufficient energy and strength. I'm glad that the reservoir of adrenaline+endorphine were just enough on christmas eve and with great companions like my brothers and sisters in Christ, things have never been too difficult :) Really enjoyed the message shared during caroling, and I'm glad that God once again re-inforce the value of being God's child this Christmas. It is not about my condition, it's about me and my identity. Amen that Christmas is here again to give us a timely reminder. And Amen that Christmas comes and goes but Jesus always stays with us through it all. Amen =)
This Christmas has an added meaning to me too. My parents, elder brother and sister-in-law were in Singapore this Christmas to spend time with us. Can I tell you that I'm really really filled with loads gratitude these few days? Have been wondering how to tell my parents that I won't be with them during Christmas eve because I will be with my church having caroling. Had so much fear brewing in my heart that they would be sad and hurt if I were to attend Christmas service and left them at home.
However, the more me and my sister thought about it, the more we were sure that escapism is no longer the solution. Our Lord has brought us this far. I just want to say - I'm really really very happy. I know the battle is not over but God is faithful to us. The fact that my siblings and myself were there during christmas service and being ministered by the message is a confirmation from God that He will take charge. That morning, as 4 of us were eating McDonald breakfast together and saying prayer for our family, somehow my heart grew a bit fonder, a bit stronger, and a bit calmer. God's in control and I should stop playing mind game from now on. I just need to live out Christ in every role of my life - a daughter, a sister in the family and in church, and a pharmacist at work. Although we joined them after church, although there're many unspoken feelings in their hearts, we spent the rest of the day well. It's more than enough already :) I pray that we can give our parents true Christmas one day, in Lord's timetable.
Blessed Christmas to you. I realize that God's the best Santa Claus I can ever ask for. As I recount my blessing one by one, I cannot deny that His grace is always there and in many strongholds of my life, He has kept me safe and wrestled the Satan.
Really, all I want for Christmas is You my Lord!
How's your christmas this year? Hope you had a good christmas with you loved ones.
Can't believe that it's end of year again. Really love christmas for too many reasons. To me, the air around christmas has always been the most wonderful. Not so much for the gift exchange, but more for the word 'Christmas' itself - it exudes an atmosphere of love, being together, and remembrance.
Went caroling with church again this year. Though this is something that we do every year, this time it gives me a different significance for I had the chance to help out with the planning with brother randy, although the contribution is little. Didn't sleep much the night before caroling for I was out with ssg peeps till near 4 am, and having to work the next day really makes things harder. But ONE thing is true that when the heart is truly joyful, adrenaline and endorphine will naturally be secreted in extra-ordinary amount and make you pull through the day with sufficient energy and strength. I'm glad that the reservoir of adrenaline+endorphine were just enough on christmas eve and with great companions like my brothers and sisters in Christ, things have never been too difficult :) Really enjoyed the message shared during caroling, and I'm glad that God once again re-inforce the value of being God's child this Christmas. It is not about my condition, it's about me and my identity. Amen that Christmas is here again to give us a timely reminder. And Amen that Christmas comes and goes but Jesus always stays with us through it all. Amen =)
This Christmas has an added meaning to me too. My parents, elder brother and sister-in-law were in Singapore this Christmas to spend time with us. Can I tell you that I'm really really filled with loads gratitude these few days? Have been wondering how to tell my parents that I won't be with them during Christmas eve because I will be with my church having caroling. Had so much fear brewing in my heart that they would be sad and hurt if I were to attend Christmas service and left them at home.
However, the more me and my sister thought about it, the more we were sure that escapism is no longer the solution. Our Lord has brought us this far. I just want to say - I'm really really very happy. I know the battle is not over but God is faithful to us. The fact that my siblings and myself were there during christmas service and being ministered by the message is a confirmation from God that He will take charge. That morning, as 4 of us were eating McDonald breakfast together and saying prayer for our family, somehow my heart grew a bit fonder, a bit stronger, and a bit calmer. God's in control and I should stop playing mind game from now on. I just need to live out Christ in every role of my life - a daughter, a sister in the family and in church, and a pharmacist at work. Although we joined them after church, although there're many unspoken feelings in their hearts, we spent the rest of the day well. It's more than enough already :) I pray that we can give our parents true Christmas one day, in Lord's timetable.
Blessed Christmas to you. I realize that God's the best Santa Claus I can ever ask for. As I recount my blessing one by one, I cannot deny that His grace is always there and in many strongholds of my life, He has kept me safe and wrestled the Satan.
Really, all I want for Christmas is You my Lord!
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