Give us strength, Lord. Because sometimes things get tough, and we are ready to quit.
Give us your love, Lord. Because sometimes people reject us, and we are tempted to hate.
Give us your eyes, Lord. Because sometimes life gets dark, and we lose our way.
Give us your courage, Lord. Because often we are put under pressure, and it's hard to do what is right.
Give us yourself, Lord. Because our hearts were made for you, and we will not rest until we rest in you.
- Mark Link, S.J-
Saturday, March 29, 2008
I think i am enjoying giving tuition much these days. I like the closeness with my kids, and i like them sharing their silly stories with me :) One of my students look like Mindy hee. Same hair cut, same body proportion (:P), same color tone. She's a netballer wohoo! And guess wad, her name is Hui Qing. Hee, sounds like my name :D And she keeps telling me about bugs and birds. So cute. Another student is jason, another cute boy.
After tuition i met up with eric for a quick lunch at JP. We had subway melt, i like subway! This fella is really smart, and he has secured a good job at Deustche bank, with good pay and everything good lahz. Haha, i've never expected the good buddy who used to teach me math and chemistry when i was in JC would actually perform so well in his everything. I am glad for u buddy :D Pls prepare your speech well, haha, valedictorian sia :P
The rest of the day had been quite well spent. The potato salad from 7-11 was really nice :) And the apple pie too :)
Okies, those are the photos taken when i was super bored in my room and eating the potato salad. Haha!
It was supposed to be a holy week . However, i felt that the first 5 days of the week had been exceptionally unholy for me. Not that i have done anything nasty, but rather, it's the feelings that overwhelmed me that made me so unholy. I felt so lost again. Had not been touching my school works for the whole week, and to me it's serious, because exams are just few weeks away. And i have 2 CAs coming up in a week time, the contents tested have also increased. However, there's simply no motivation within me. This is so wrong isn't it? It was as if i was dreaming the whole time :) And it's weird that i could put a smiley face here haha :)
However, i did something more faithfully this week. From the start of the week till today, i have been making an effort to count my blessings everyday. You must be laughing at me right? Why hooiching so "zuo bo", not studying when i really should, instead i went to count my blessings. Hee. I also dunno why. Somehow, i felt that this is an important task that i should practise everyday. It helps me to focus on what i have, how God has been providing me all the necessary things i need in life, and how God is loving me through the people around me and circumstances. And after doing all these, i felt better. Really :)
Last Monday marked the last day of PK practicals. The last practical requires us to collect urine over 3 days to assay for drug disposition. You know, i especially love practicals this semester. This sem's practicals have been quite different to me. This sem's practicals draw me closer to more people, and i was also made realized that all along, God has placed a lot of angels beside me, and i really thank God for that. I really enjoyed every practical sessions this semester. Although the length of practicals have increased tremendously this sem, more tedious, but we are all drawn closer too. Can u believe it? We actually had an outing together last tuesday ! :) Thank you so much labbies :)
Here are some photos we took during our last practical. meiqi, lin, me
Bench mates :)
We are all "Tays" :)
Lab outing at vivo :)
Oh ya, i watched "Step Up 2. The Streets" with lin, yq, and mindy. Haha actually i bugged them to watch with me, because i have been wanting to watch this show. Somehow, i've never missed a single dance movie before :) And this step up 2 is really nice! Totally amazing, and the street dances are so cool :) and i'm glad that they enjoyed the show too hee. :P
I have started joining the wed ssg group. This is one of my major decisions i guess. Even though i may not have tuition near church next time, but i still feel like joining the wed's ppl. In fact, i'm actually looking forward to knowing them better, because i like the joy permeates these ppl when they get together. I pray that i can continue to see God's love and guidances when mixing with them, and i know i will :)
Went dempsey hill for dinner with dav on thursday. This fella was very fickle-minded, and i'm glad that we shared a lot of stories over the dinner. I've never been to dempsey hill before, and it's really a nice place, with lots of high class restaurants. I won't wanna visit there anymore, too expensive for a dinner! Haha, this fella keeps talking abt girls and his love stories :P Glad that we are still good friends, and it's really God's plan that after all these years, we still understand each other as much, encouraging each other to pursue our dreams :) Keep walking in Christ :)
Friday, Good Friday. Important message in church, i slept for a bit :( However, God did not allow me to leave church empty-handed. Talked to Hui jun, and some other people in church. You know, i don't really know many people in my church. Despite that, i still like lingering in church, because it feels so warm and loving in that place. I feel Your love in church, more evidently. Oh, my little Joshua :) he's my favorite toddler :) muakz. sunshine boy :)
I have been you-tubing a lot lately. Watched till 3-4am :( I think it's time to reformat my lifestyle and priorities again. Youtubing is bad, tell me this the next time you see me k :) But i like that drama! haha, mindy knows it :P girls sia... simply love dreaming!
I spent half of my Saturday giving tuition. God, it feels really different this time. When the perception is right, everything becomes very blessed. I can see my student absorbing what have been taught, and i know that they will improve. I wanna give them my knowledge, and i seek God for wisdom when teaching them. This time, be a good tutor. A good tutor who sincerely wants the best for the students.
At night, i attended my hall DND with mindy, pc and her bf, denyse... it was at laguna country club. It was near tampines, and as the car drove past tampines ave 9, i saw the blue building... it strike a chord in my heart. But... God knows me.
DND was good, more importantly, this was my last time attending a hall DND, for i'll be moving out of hall next sem onwards. As we sat there, we realized that how phantom we've been these 2 years. But i felt alright, afterall, I made good friends during my stay in hall. It's really the greatest gift of my life to be able to know mindy, pc, denyse. Denyse is graduating, all the best gal :) pc finally found someone she really loves, someone who can make her stop wandering and be focused :) glad for you gal. And mindy, i have loads to tell you, your presence in hall, in school and in everything we do together... i love you :) I think i like my lantern dress, feels different to feel so puffy haha! i like the puffiness! puff puff puff!
phaik ching and me
mindy and me
pc, denyse, me, zongbo :)
And... give me your honest opinion... How do i look in short hair?
Happy Easter :) Today is a happy day. Perhaps is the chat with chiu fen. Perhaps is the message i received in church today. Perhaps is the change in my heart and the comfort that God gives. Perhaps perhaps perhaps.
我知道自己的归宿 我因归宿有了方向 我只要跟着指引 就够了
我的幸福 跟我身边的人的幸福 很有关系
我 就算错了 很错 错 错 了 上帝会万事互相效力的 我的心要有眼光
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Yesterday marked the end of the whole YEP project. We had a post-trip to Singapore Discovery Centre, with the children from Henderson childcare centre. I had loads fun touring the SDC, and i bet it'll be more fun without the kids, because they were quite naughty -_- the army museum visit was okay, and the movie was quite real too. And my little miss auntie came on this day, so it was quite wise of me to reject taking my urine for labs :)
And the night before COT went out for dinner at riverwalk Tandoor --> NOT nice and i don't think i will be going there ever again! haha.. but the dessert at Ricciotti was fabulous.
I'm starting giving tuition next wednesday. All the way to Macpherson, very far. the good thing is i am going church after tuition, so it makes the traveling worthwhile, in another word. This time, i am determined to be a better tutor, not for mere money's sake, not anymore. And God is really so cute, He made me take up this tuition despite the low pay that i get in return . haha. but i see what He is trying to instill in me.
And i have one more thing to say.. That is true love drives out all fear.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Sabbath day again. Of all the seven days in a week, Sunday is my favorite day. It's called the Sabbath day in the bible. I look forward to this very day because this is the day which i can again, immerse myself intensely in God's love, recharge myself, so that i can live again for another 7 days.
God's words give me peace and comfort. Sometimes, His words are like a therapy. Sometimes, when i see those little babies and toddlers playing ard the church, it's another therapy. Sometimes, when i realize that i am sitting in church listening to His words, it's also a therapy. A therapy that restores my heart, gives me strength, and courage.
We should live seven days and one day for each day. This is determined by God. I have a very high hope in our God. And each time after Sabbath day, my hope is restored again and again. Pastor said, if we receive rest on Sabbath day through Holy Spirit and His words, the worries for that week will worry on its own. No problem in our lives can go beyond the 7 days.
I am really thankful that God is leading me in this spiritual path. I believe that i will never grow, if He had not imposed the matter on me. As i am naked in front of God, similarly, i am also naked in front of Satan. He knows the matter closest to my heart, so is Satan. But i've finally discovered and experienced the difference. Satan uses the matter closest to my heart to toy me ard, create more suferings to me; but God uses the same matter to love me, to teach me, and to raise me up high. It's true God, no matter what hurts i had received, Your love is also most evident through these trials. When i am weakest, You brought me back to this small family church where i could hear Your voices clearly, feel Your love, be taken cared by my dearest pastor and group leader. If it weren't Your meticulous plan, i could not imagine where i will be today. If it weren't Your perfect guiding, I would have drown myself in sorrow and left this world. God was so far away from me. But after all these months, i could no longer forget You every single second of my life. I've never thought that i can go through the sea But like how You had opened the Red Sea for Moses and the Israelites, You've also opened the Red sea for me.
Because of the depth and width of Your love, it gives me strength to love, to forgive, and to anticipate in You. Because i know although i am weak in others' eyes, i'm most pleasant in Your sight. Because i've experienced such intensity of love from You, i can never deny You or stray away anymore. You did a lot of things for me by using paradox, but i see what's embedded in all these paradox.
Your love gives me courage.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
There's always a way out.
Sometimes you may feel that a temptation is too overpowering for you to bear, but that's a lie from Satan.
God has promised never to allow more on you than He puts within you to handle it.
He will not permit any temptation that you could not overcome.
There's always a way out.
Remember that the temptations that come into your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will keep the temptation from becoming so strong that you can't stand up against it. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you will not give in to it.
