Today I have an awful feeling which I fear much.
So many moments of helplessness, prayers, and silences but they all failed to take this awful feeling away.

God, when will this end :(
Is it because I am starting work?
Or is it because I have this conviction that things inside won't change despite the work?

Please let me wake up in heaven Lord.


Hopefully by then I won't have my lion head with me too.