Is there a way out?

Why can't I do the things that I love, and don't do the things I don't like?

Is it just me being oversensitive or paranoid?

Why do I feel that God You always arrange me such that I will be dwelling the seemingly difficult task?

I feel that I am losing myself.

I no longer see myself, God. :(

I find myself numbed, painless, and ugly.

God, is there a way out?

I don't like myself.

God, please take away my life, when I don't have strength to give it all to you.