31.12.2008

December is really a happening month, don't you agree with me?

Firstly, it's a holiday month! (and it's my holiday month because soon i will join the pharmacy workforce)

Secondly, most people return from overseas during December and it's the best time to catch up with long-lost friends/ or people you've been wanting to see :)

Thirdly, It's christmas! A time to give, and a time to receive too :)
I had a wonderful christmas this year. First time caroling, and first time being a Santa Claus.



I must say that I've received a lot from the brothers and sisters in church throughout the year, Mei Er and rachel always treat me nice food and bring me nice stuff, leader also always takes very good care of me. So it's time for me to give too, yea, and i truly enjoy the spirit of giving that comes upon me during this december because the smiles on their faces are my greatest rewards, and I know that God's happy with me because I've learnt the homework He has been wanting me to learn and embrace.

Fourthly, it's new year eve and coming of 2009!
A time of reflection of how 2008 has been and counting your own blessings.
It's is because the blessings of 2008 path ways to the resolutions of 2009, at least for me such is the case.
2007 was a horrible year and 2008 has been a peaceful year. Although many times, the problems persist, the weakness is so apparent and unacceptable, making me so miserable at times, I'm glad that I am still alive today. Living by God's grace and promises day by day, and finally my day by day has brought me to the end of 2008. Sometimes we fear about the future, in fact I'm most fearful of future. Things often change, and I'm most resistant to changes. But my greatest comfort is that God's an unchanging God, so no matter what changing situations/people I was made to encounter this year, I'm glad that I was still able to pull through them by faith.

God never fails, and He never will.
Problems come, but problems will resolve too.
Like the Israelites, the Red Sea existed so that it could be opened up and pathed a way for them, and killed the thousands army that prosecuted them.
If God gives you a problem, He is to solve it.
That's my greatest consolation because i know that I will not be weak forever.
I have my brothers and sisters in christ, caring siblings, good friends and most importantly, God's words - the covenants which He made with us using His entire life.

Be courageous.

End of 2008

2 more days to 2009, how are you feeling?

Thank God this year has been better than last year.
Sometimes, it feels awful to oscillate between north and south poles.
But sometimes, it feels so much bearable when you know that the people care about you want you to come out of this oscillations.

2008 has been a great year.
No matter how busy I've been, no matter how many deadlines and problems I have to face, I still think that this year has been good. I think my growth retardation started too soon few years back and is picking up slowly this year.

Just one resolution for 2009 - 靠 主 而 活 ， 因 主 喜 乐 。

Not to be discouraged when it seems as though I don't
see fruits in my life. I pray You will make every barren area
in my life be fruitful and productive. When I start to feel that I may
never give birth to anything of significance, I will lift up praise to You,
because it is only through Your enablement that I can break forth into
the purpose for which You have called me..

December is a season of joy Part II

I have attended 2 weddings in 2 weeks, and I like weddings and helping out in weddings :) Stephanie got married last Sunday, not many of us attended the wedding because many of her friends were overseas, but it was a grand one, definitely. 7 years of dating and courtship and finally tadah.... I'm sure the journey to marriage wasn't easy, but with God all things are possible yea gal? Mei Wen asked me if Steph's married, haha, yea now you have the answer :)



Oh, and i have a food picture to upload, all thanks to Mei Ee and many other nice church friends :) A sumptuous Christmas dinner indeed. You're really a giving person, not only in this area, but in many other areas!!!



Result is better than expected. Thank God! I think I can answer to my Pastor's challenge haha!

December is a season of Joy Part I

It's mid december already!!! Aiks, just realised that whenever i come here to write a post, i always say how time flies or sorta things. But really, time really flies!!! My last post dated 2 december and now it is 16 december already!!! And next week is christmas! wuhoo :) so happie! I wish to have santa claus around me so that i can get many many presents!! haha! most important of all, i believe that this christmas will be better than last year's because i am better this year than last year, agree?

December is a holiday month, it's also a time which i will never lose out by having as many gatherings as possible. My first target was henry! He just got back from australia and we dined at Thai Express and MOF.. i was so happy to see him back, with so many sharings and yea, proud of you friend! God didn't waste your one year, it was so necessary for you to be who you are today, isn't it? :) Was quite disappointed that i couldn't join the class gathering because i have ssg, but nevermind, i'll organise one myself, soon i hope :)

Next was Adrienne and Zhiming's big FAT wedding! Was so honored to help out at the reception and little here and there. The wedding was very very beautiful and i was so immersed in the blissfulness surrounding them on that day. wuhoo! I think the food was quite good too, next time if you're holding a wedding, go to Grand Copthorne Warterfront Hotel - Nice ambience, nice food, and nice hospitality!

Had COT gathering last wednesday. Was quite sad that not all were able to make it, but for the people who came, i was glad that the night was joyously spent. Agree? :) Hee let's go pitstop cafe on xmas zee!!! haha.. i always love COT. i hope COT loves COT too, they are one of the few groups of friends i have left, of which i cherish more too.

Yiteng is going to ANU for SEP next semester. DANIEL! you better take care of her k? Bring her around and make her nice food ah. Hee, i hope to go australia for my grad trip yea... please pray that it'll work out this time round hee. :)

A picture speaks a thousand words :)


I'll be going home soon!! Whee so happy... it's time to spend some time with my family, best friend, and my best friend's wedding :)

Goodnight :)

Updates

My last paper ended last wednesday 730pm.

This exam period was so short because other people were still mugging for their exams while i finished my very last paper since last wednesday. Aw... how blessed.

I ate subway almost everyday during the whole study week and exam week, because it is the nearest place where i can get something to munch. And i think subway is really quite healthy, with loads of vege, and most importantly, 20% discount if you're a NUS student.


This is food :)

Didn't really take a good break after the papers, because it didn't feel like an exam in the first place, and i am too caught up with my fyp matters right after my paper.

Oh, i didn't do quite well for the papers. Was quite disappointed with myself, because i know that i've put in quite a lot of hard work, yet the performance on the spot was quite unsatisfactory. Yeah, didn't know my standard dropped so much haha. But nevermind, because i tasted God's grace the most during these 2 weeks, and i know that i will be fine even though everything else falls apart, because He is a living and loving God :) thank You :)

Met up with Henry yesterday! Yep, he's back from australia! We did have a good time chatting at thai express and MOF, and yeah, my favorite MOF haha! Now that i am a MOF member, i think i will keep bugging people to go there with me hee. It's a good place to eat Japanese food and dessert :) yummy! too bad i don't have the photos with me, maybe can ask henry to send me ASAP :P

NCC has been boring but i'm really glad that i have hui lin to accompany me since last friday. We both are so killed by our data collection process haha! And i think she's doubly killed by my spastic sound effects every now and then -_- too bad huh, that's how i cheer me (and hopefully her) on. You know, it's actually quite awful to review patients' profiles because my patient has 3-4 files of case notes and every doctor has different handwritings, often the data are incomplete, and very often i see stars and more stars, more likely is read until got stars in my eyes hee. Fine, i don't know what i'm talking about hee.

Oh, i've moved to stay with my sister. A different environment, but i certainly wish it's a good start, a fresh start, a different beginning.

Mindy, i'm so happy to eat dinner with you today!!
Hee, miss your laughters. :) I think we'll have so much MORE fun if we watch the drama together!!!!!!!!!!

haha!
Goodnight :)

Reflections

Spent the weekend at my sis's place. Realized that i needed a break so much, i needed to stay away from this room and had a retreat somewhere.
Luckily i have a somewhere to go to when i am desperate.

Had a good swim with my sister.
Had a good breakfast at the neighborhood.
Decided to be my sis's house mate's model for Smokey eyes... and this's her masterpiece.


Okay can't really see, but i think she did a good job.

Visited sis meifeng at her place in the afternoon, she just gave birth!
I've always loved her sunshine boy Joshua, he's really adorable.
Now we have Isaac to join the family!
Isaac is so tiny, so so so small!
And Joshua is only 2.5yrs old and he's running everywhere with his cheeky smiles and laughters already! He's still my sunshine boy :) I played rugby with him for awhile, and he laughed so happily! I feel that this boy really yearns to have playmates.. he's so so cute!

Went back to my sis's house after the visit and just when i thought there's nothing that i could do there at night (i really didn't want to study at all for that weekend), jan gave me a call!
They were coming to find me!!! I was so excited you know! Gosh, i've never seen them ever since the NDP fireworks and sometimes i really thought that i've been forgotten. Geraldine is at NIE and Jan is a CITI-gal now. I feel that everyone has left school, they have started pursuing their careers etc... and i'm still here. I was so glad that they came all the way just to see me and gave me a belated birthday celebration. It's not about the celebration, it's really about seeing them, again!

We had supper at the 24 hrs mamak stall near my place and started talking and talking. I realized now we talked about adults stuff, unlike last time in TJC, i always asked whether i should eat the hashbrown from Western or the laksa from the noodle stall. Hee, but this is life isn't it. I am just thankful that our friendship stays strong, despite we don't meet often. :)



Met linda for dinner on sunday, we went to Holland Village! Seriously, i really miss her loads ever since the school started. I don't know why, i guess it's because i wish to know what's happening in her life and if she's coping fine. If she's not, i hope she could let me know at least. She's silly at times. And she knows that i've never failed to amaze her that how much i know about her, her inner thoughts etc. I'll pray for you my dear friend :) You were so pretty that day and i forgot to take a photo with you :(

Monday was another fun day! Church outing at pasir ris park and it was my FIRST time joining a church outing. I was quite excited but the distance really made me sian at times. I still brought myself there, with my sister, and God rewarded me with a day full of laughters and good food and games :) Amen!









This is Caleb :)

It's thursday already. Fast huh? Today the drug quiz was quite bad hee. I've done the best i could but still... You're still in control i know.

Today, i seemed to lose a little of my self-control.
Perhaps it's because things have been emotionally draining for me this couple of weeks and i've lost the patience and the thoughtfulness to others. I know i shouldn't give in to my emotions so easily. Sorry if you feel that i've been too harsh today. I don't know why suddenly there's an urge of frustration and unhappiness within me, and i know that this morning i have specially prayed for a loving heart to others around me, and strength for me to remain calm despite unfavorable circumstances, be it externally or internally.

It's just so bad when you surrender yourself to your emotions.
Emotions lie, and they blind you from many things.
Sigh.

Last but not least ...
Happy birthday my sweet princess, i hope you have a great birthday this year.
I'm glad that you have restored your friendships, and realigned your priorities :)





"But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.'

Closure

Tough weeks just passed. Tougher weeks awaiting. Sometimes i get so bogged down with the things in life... I need to be right with God, all over again.

Dispensing was like a warfare last thursday. 3 prescriptions, 3 interventions, and i totally agree with wp when she mentioned ' if you think year1&2 dispensings were bad, this year4 dispensing is hell.' haha. it's really quite horrible. i think my luck wasn't that good that day, picked 2 prescriptions that... erm.. i felt were quite extraordinary. 1 controlled drug prescription that needs intervention, and the other prescription was a FORGERY. darn. weren't taught how to handle them but i did my best i guess. Learning is a journey. Totally agree with you when you said it today! God's still in control, i know.

My faith was put to test a couple of times this week. Sometimes situations deceive, and those are the times your preception and mindset have to stand firm. Believe God can do wonders, perhaps not to the situations, but to your heart and soul.

God knows my inner thoughts. That's all i could say.

Monday was my dry run for my FYP presentation on thursday. It went very well, with pleasant comments from supervisor and peers. Thursday's presentation was a setback. I won't go too much into it. Tired. Drained.

And a pharmacotherapy test today! Wohoho, STD, UTI, Pneumonia, URTI... i hope i didnt screw it up. With the amount of time i have, the amount of tasks at hands, and the amount of deadlines, i feel that i've given my best. Really. I didn't want to prepare for them like preparing for a test, i want to prepare it well because i am dealing with lives God's entrusting into my hands in future. Yet, limitations are just everywhere.

I need a rest.
Give me a break.
I need a break to realign my priorities and have closure with God.

I really want to be right with You again.

It's October ..

Time flies. It's already week 2 after the mid-sem break. Presentation 1 is 2 weeks away, then it'll be exams. My year 4 sem 1 feels like a breeze, and it's also the first time in my life that i realized time is passing really fast.

Last friday was my birthday. I had a great time, really. Didn't have fanciful celebrations but i feel that what happened over the past few days were the most suitable birthday 'period' for me. Suddenly had an urge to treat Mindy and Phaik Ching to a very nice Russian restaurant. Actually i've been wanting to do that. Have been wanting to thank them for sticking with me through the ups and downs. One thing that pc put on msn is quite dear to my heart. 朋 友 就 是 看 透 你 了 却 依 然 爱 你 ， 陪 伴 你 的 人 。 You know, for the past year, i had been one of their greatest concern, their pain in their asses :P. I really am very thankful to have them in my life, for without them, and without their silent sacrifices and patience, I won't be able to pull through the valley of darkness. They are Godsent. Really. And I thank God for them :)

But being an arrogant me, I didn't really tell them the purpose of the fine-dine. I hope they understand. I hope you both know that I appreciate you gals loads. I hope you both know that I really love you gals loads. It's through them that i deeply realized that God loves me, and He hasn't given up on me.


At Shashlik :)



I have a round face. Sigh!

I insisted that we all should try their famous Baked Alaska. Actually I just wanted to show them that the cake got fire. Haha, cos i think it's quite special mahz. Mindy refused to try and i have already known why. (They prepared a cake for me :), and i know they always will haha!). But still, i insisted. So.. tadaah!


The Famous Baked Alaska!! Yeah :P

Hope you gals enjoyed the dinner, just as how i enjoy our friendship all these years :)

Few more pics:


The MPC

Mindy says i should wear this more often. But it's HOT!!!! I really wish my sister could see me wearing it, cos she bought me this. Not that it's superawesome, but i always appreciate what she gives me :) and i hope she feels it.



Does it look like me?




With jk in hall. I bully him all the times!



Although I've been saying that birthday is just another day. Actually.. i didn't quite mean it. Hee.
It's a day of great importance to me. That very day, somehow, I devoted bulk of my time recounting my blessings for the past 1 year. I want to confirm that i am indeed better this year and see more God's love and grace this year than the last. I know that I am weak all this while, but I also know that God is faithful and His grace is sufficient for me.

I should say i have a breakthrough in church this year too. He answered my prayers, that's all i could say. :) i'm glad that by His grace, I got to know them better, especially Mei Er, rachel, john and vilon. You know, they are really the most beloved children of God I've ever met. I thank God for them, and i thank Him for putting me in this circle :)




My sister. She's a great sister :)


I learnt a lot from these people :)

Besides, i met up with Han wen on last Saturday for a food feast :)
I'm glad that she's better these days. She's been through a lot of things. She's changed too.
I'm so glad that we are still there for each other.
I'm so glad that she still looks for me when she needs help.
And I'm so glad that she's so pretty now :P

God's grace :)

I just had my econs test. Not too bad, not too good. I think it's just okay, considering the effort i put in. Had dinner with zee after the test at my all-time-favorite McDonald's. Hee, i always have cravings for McDonald's :) But then again, I shall refrain from eating burgers from now on hee.

The mid-sem break had finally ended. I don't remember accomplishing anything, but i think i am doing things this one week, just that they are endless, yea. Went to National Cancer Centre a couple of times. I am glad that i spent most times at the wards instead of the office in NCC, because i just have a greater sense of belonging for the wards. Weird, i know. Was digging out many case notes from different places, completing my DUE for my lymphoma patients etc etc.. and trying to hear what the nurses were talking about. In fact, it's depressing to work in an oncology ward you know. Oncology - CANCER. NCC is an outpatient cancer centre, but this oncology ward is an inpatient cancer ward, meaning the cancer patients are hospitalized there for long-term treatment, and the treatment could not be provided in an outpatient setting. It's a direct proportion to the severity of the cancer, in another word.

A lady kept calling. She couldn't accept the fact that her husband had just passed away.
She kept calling. Kept asking for second opinions from another doctor.
Suddenly, i felt like it was me. I was the lady. The feeling of denial, was so familiar.

So many struggles going on in my life these days.
I'm so thankful that God's grace is still evident to me, despite the many happenings in my life.

不 要 因 为 有 感 恩 的 事 而 感 恩 ， 而 是 感 恩 了 才 会 看 到 更 多 感 恩 的 事 。

Hello people! Wonder if anyone still comes by and take a look here. I haven't been blogging. It is just hard to have a blogging mood when there are many other stuffs waiting for you to settle.

Mid-sem break has just started.
It's killing me. But i know it's just a feeling.
Feeling and what really is, they are both DIFFERENT.
You get what i am talking about?
I guess i know, but no one else knows.
Feelings kill, but the facts don't.
That's it.

I went to swim at my sister's condo last night.
Did a steam bath after that.
Cool, and i liked it.
Will sneak into the condo more often this week for more swims.
Weather's hot, you should go swimming.
Running doesn't help anymore >_<

Going chemotherapy 3x/week.
Hope it works.
Hope i don't have to go more than 3 times.
But i don't mind traveling since it's break now.

Just one week break. If you think it's long, then you're wrong.
The methotrexate needs more than 1 week to understand.
The econs are difficult. I think i am going to fail the test on monday.
My tuition kids need help.
The swimming pool needs me as well.
Yet i feel bored.
I am almost done with HOUSE. It's depressing.
At least i don't like everything evolves around SEX.
Life still goes on without sex.
But it stops when there's no LOVE isn't it?
Something is wrong with the Americans.
They're too obsessed with physical interactions- SEX to be specific.
That's why they have the highest occurrence of sexually-transmitted disease. Gonorrhea, AIDs and infections on the genitals.

I really dislike Americans in this aspect.

Argh.. my mood is just bad.
Sorry if my post is absurd.

Suddenly I miss my parents so much.

You know, when I was a kid, when i got bullied in school, never once i would interpret that as 'bully'. But when i grew up, my mom told me that i was being ill-treated by friends when I was a kid. You know, parents just know what you've been going through, without you having to tell them. When I didn't see any ill-treatment, they would see it.

When I was a kid, I rarely ran to my parents complaining about things.
The only time I ran to them for help was when my brother was beating the shit out of me.
I watched movies when I was a kid.
Children run to their parents when they suffered/ encountered bad things.
I wonder how it feels like. Not that my parents didn't care about me, they care about me loads.
It's just me. I have not reached the extent that will make me want to cry in their arms, badly.

I so want to run to them and cry badly.

I so wanna run to my Father in Heaven and cry all my heart out.

Daddy in Heaven, please give me strength. No one understands what I've been going through but You do. You are the only help, my only help. So let me hear You.

Help me to have love in my heart even when i have to confront difficult and trying things.

God, I still want to give thanks to You, in all circumstances.

He Wants to Comfort You

My child’s feelings are hurt. I tell her she’s special. My child is injured. I do whatever it takes to make her feel better.

My child is afraid. I won’t go to sleep until she is secure.

I’m not a hero. I’m not a superstar. I’m not unusual. I’m a parent. When a child hurts, a parent does what comes naturally. He helps.

And after I help, I don’t charge a fee. I don’t ask for a favor in return. When my child cries, I don’t tell her to buck up, act tough, and keep a stiff upper lip. Nor do I consult a list and ask her why she is still scraping the same elbow or waking me up again.

I’m not a prophet, nor the son of one, but something tells me that in the whole scheme of things the tender moments described above are infinitely more valuable than anything I do in front of a computer screen or congregation. Something tells me that the moments of comfort I give my child are a small price to pay for the joy of someday seeing my daughter do for her daughter what her dad did for her.

Moments of comfort from a parent. As a father, I can tell you they are the sweetest moments in my day. They come naturally. They come willingly. They come joyfully.

If all of that is true, if I know that one of the privileges of fatherhood is to comfort a child, then why am I so reluctant to let my heavenly Father comfort me?

Why do I think he wouldn’t want to hear about my problems? (“They are puny compared to people starving in India.”)

Why do I think he is too busy for me? (“He’s got a whole universe to worry about.”)

Why do I think he’s tired of hearing the same old stuff?

Why do I think he groans when he sees me coming?

Why do I think he consults his list when I ask for forgiveness and asks, “Don’t you think you’re going to the well a few too many times on this one?”

Why do I think I have to speak a holy language around him that I don’t speak with anyone else?

Why do I not take him seriously when he questions, “If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!” (Matthew 7:11)

Why don’t I let my Father do for me what I am more than willing to do for my own children?

I’m learning, though. Being a parent is better than a course on theology. Being a father is teaching me that when I am criticized, injured, or afraid, there is a Father who is ready to comfort me. There is a Father who will hold me until I’m better, help me until I can live with the hurt, and who won’t go to sleep when I’m afraid of waking up and seeing the dark.

Ever. And that’s enough

By Max Lucado
Adapted from:
The Applause of Heaven

美意

我知道我为你们所安排计划，
是要赐你平安， 不是降灾祸。
要叫你们末后有指望，
你要呼求我就必得应允。

这是主的应许， 永不变的应许，
虽环境使你矛盾与不信。
但无一事能阻挡主美意，
主的作为永远不被限制。

你不要害怕， 我与你同在，
你不要惊惶， 我是你的神，
我是以美意带领你一生，
为叫你成圣主名得荣。

为何要等苦难过了才喜乐? 试炼中的恩典比常日更多。
你若有心祷告与察验， 必发现主爱从没离开你。
不要单单期盼黑暗后的曙光， 现在主也同在， 现在有答案。
每一挑战都有主理由， 一刻也不使你多挣扎。


你不要害怕， 主与你同在，
你不要惊惶， 耶酥是你神，
他必以美意带领你一生，
为叫你成圣主名得荣。

我不再害怕， 主与我同在，
我不要惊惶， 耶酥是我神，
他必以美意带领你一生，
我只需信靠， 放心跟从。

FiReWorKs and BeeR

I really like this photo :)


The NDP fireworks!


I am standing on a chair hee :)


Jan and me :)


Scary huh! :D

Before FYP...

I must thank God. During the last few days of my holiday, He has made arrangements so that i could meet up with people i've been longing to meet up with. Last week had been a week filled with fun, laughters and thankfulness :)

Hanwen and me sort of organized an AH gathering on friday. AH is the anglican high hostel where we used to stay while we were in TJC. Yeah, so since Huong, Lita and Eric have just moved into a new house, so we made them the host. Unfortunately... Eric is in London!!! And Lita had some family matters to attend to... so poor Huong has to take care of everything. :) Yeah. Basically me and han wen just prepared the food and made sure everything's okay. Nothing much to do also hee. But what i love most is the time spent together with hanwen that day. She came to my room very early in the morning, all the way from Sengkang you know~! Coincidentally, that day is the NUS Rag day, so i took the opportunity to bring her down to the SRC to watch the floats and the dances. Then... we stayed in my room for quite some time and you know why? She insisted that i should put on makeup before i went out. Haha! Luckily she was there to touchup a little here and there (in fact she practically painted the face for me la!) hee.. but i appreciate the skills you imparted to me :P



Do we look alike? :)


Not much difference yea? It's supposed to look natural and nice, hanwen said :P

Then we went to Orchard for a walk and happened to see Mc Cafe is offering the Frappe 1 for 1. And so....

TADAAA!!



After that, we went to find Huong at her workplace to get her house key and when we reached there, the deliverman was sleeping outside the house already :P

First time eating the golden pilow. Cool stuff. Actually it is just curry chicken in a giant bun but it's quite nice :)

Here are some photos.. all accompanied with laughters :)










Yu chii and me :) She is leaving to Beijing this coming september to continue with her Traditional Chinese Medicine course.. for 2YEARS!!!!! Hee. She was my first roomie when i entered Nanyang and we continued to stay quite close cos we went to jc together too :) It's quite sad that she's leaving but i am sure our hearts won't be too far apart :)

Oh ya, we watched the Olympics opening together!! It was so fun :D

Saturday was Singapore's National Day and to my amazement, i actually had a date. Geraldine and jovin asked me and jan out to watch fireworks together!!! Hee.. my jc buddies cum classmates :) Before that i actually met up with judy, mj and yiteng cos we mj jus came back from canada and we have not met for 1.5 months already!!!


Mj, me, judy


Mj, judy, yiteng and me :)

The fireworks photos are very nice!!! Unfortunately i don't have them with me now, it's with geraldine. It was our first time watching fireworks together and i like this idea :) the fireworks are beautiful.. it's really different to watch it LIVE!! And you know what, i bumped into phaik ching cos we dined in the same restaurant! :P


Jan, me, ger, jovin @ MOF





After the fireworks, we were too excited thus we decided to go for a drink. In fact, i realized i only drink with them and nobody else!! haha. We went to a fairly nice place in boat quay but i forgot what's the name of that pub. Pretty cozy and the drinks there are affordable eh! After talking for some time we decided to play cards. Then at the end of our games there's this entertainer came to our table and he knows mAgic!!! He played a few tricks with our cards and hee.. he's quite good!


jovin ordered hoegarden... and it's pretty BIG!!

Gosh, i'm so thankful to be able to meet up with them before my hectic FYP !!!

Joy "The Sacrifice of Praise"

Have you heard of a song from Hillsongs that sounds like '.. we bring the sacrifice of praise... to the House of the Lord.."

I remember listening to this song 8 years back, is one of the early albums of Hillsongs. And i particularly liked this song then, however, sometimes i would question, what it means by 'sacrifice of praise'.

And tonight i found my answer while reading a book, so i am feeling quite excited about it hee. This books is for young woman like me :) Because it gives you insight of how a young woman could walk with God regardless of situations.

A Happy Heart. In the bible, it says, one of the fruits of the Spirit is... Joy.

When life is good, praise and thanksgiving flow freely from my heart and lips. But when life turns black, praise and thanksgiving don't flow quite so easily.

Instead, if I have to deliberately choose to follow God's advice and 'give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus' (1 Thessalonians 5:18) Although i don't feel like praising the Lord or thankingHim, I do what God says, and that effort makes my praise sacrifice.

At times, when i'd rather bask in self-pity or stay stuck in my depression, choosing to look beyond my pain makes my praise to God sacrificial. When I do lift such a sacrifice of praise to God out of the darkness of my trials, I find the Spirit's joy enlarged in my life .

Just as lifting a diamond to the light against a dark background enhances its brilliance.

Updates :)

Sorry for not updating this blog as often as i used to me. My apologies. I think the holiday mode is still lingering around me. I guess this holiday is well spent :) Family. Friends. Attachment. I think i am satisfied for how i have been for the past 3 months but there's just one thing, my walk with God. I feel that i've backslided in my spiritual walk and it feels awfully horrible.

I have moved to an entirely new room, new place. Ridge view residences.
I am in my final year! My parents keep saying i look like a kid. And when i look at myself in front of the mirror, i do feel undertall and undergrow -_- Can't believe that i am entering the workforce next year this time. There's so much more to be done!

Last friday had been beautifully spent. I met up with my primary school good friend Chian Huey. She hasn't changed much since young, perhaps it's because we haven't met since 7 years back so i haven't gotten the chance to see how much she has changed over the years. We used to write to one another when we were in secondary schools and somehow i didn't write back and somehow.. i thought we've forgot one another. Hee. She's studying medicine in Taiwan now! :) My possible holiday destination for next year wohoho!


Chian Huey And Me




AND i met up with stephanie at night!!! My form 1 buddy =)
We had a long chat at Starbucks and i absolutely love the amazing feelings of chatting with her and sharing our stories together. She's gone through so much and sometimes i wonder, wouldn't it be so good if i were there in KL when she needed strength the most. Yet i wasn't so sure if that is the best arrangement for me, steph, esther and mei wen. We were buddies since Form 1. And over the years, although we are distances apart, our hearts could just easily anneal together when we got together again. I love this friendship much. A friendship that endures distances and silences. Yet we could count on each other for strength i know. That night i couldn't sleep because my heart was filled with immense gratefulness to God. I am very thankful that He has carefully planned every single phase of my life. As i enter every phase of my life, i am often gripped by giants of fear. I fear losing good friends and the closeness we used to share but God You showed to me that because the friendship is blessed by You hence You will make sure the friendship grows deeper and more Christ-like. And i can only say the friendship between me, esther, steph, and even mei wen, has been evolving around You and that's why we could enjoy it so much :)






Esther, hope to see you next year after you've finished your Master! :)

And... My family celebrated my sister's birthday in my new room yesterday! =) i LOVE taking family photo hee.


Sweet :)